i'm not good at presenting my own feeling through spoken words
i always hope that someone will come to me automatically when i'm frustrated…but nobody do so at the end…
i initially think that my wound has already recovered as time goes by but lately i find that it's still pain…
then i realize that i only try hard to neglect its existence but never try to heal it at the past few months…
actually, nobody can deal with the things they care so much with an ordinary mind….including me…
i know i have a nice friend who often tries his best to help me do what i like
but at the same time i realize the fact that he just feels comfortable to do so
lately i feel sad cuz i'm so useless that i don't know how to support those frustrated friends around me…
one hides himself in a hole, one pretends she is alright, one always make me depressed after talking to her… 
to be honest, i understand that a frustrated person like me really can't give any practical help to those frustrated people…
on the other hand, i always don't know how to talk and show my concern in a proper way when that person is online…
sometimes i want to give that person a phone call but finally i give up…
i'm so weak at presenting my true feeling…what i did sometimes are opposite to my thought…
i don't want to give that person any pressure…i want that person to do what that person likes and i want to help what that person likes to do…but the fact is i know that person won't ask me even in need…
i'm so tired to walk forward anymore…